Christmas..

This Christmas came and went without me even feeling it..

Met up with no group of friends this Christmas..

In fact met up with no group of friends the whole of december or even november?

Cant exactly remember the last time i met up with my friends..

Not that it bothers me, i enjoy spending time at home..

Thats if i have the time to do so..

Consecutive turnouts for the past 2 cycles left me dead tired..

Car-less for a week

My mum got into an accident and the car is quite badly damaged.

Sent it for repair.

Will take a week for it to be ready, so i need to take the public transport to work..

OMG..

Overseas trip

Planning my upcoming overseas trip, shall travel as much as i can before i become non-shift.

Initially thinking of backpacking taiwan alone, in feb, as it is probably the easiest for my first solo backpacking trip. Want to go hualian, gaoxiong, those places instead of taipei.

But change of plans, will probably go Laos and parts of Thailand in March with CC instead. Hopefully it will come true, really wanna go Laos.

Maybe May-June can go India. with kok. Really wanna go India too.

August, hopefully it come true. Go vietnam with Sharon or if our schedule really cannot make it, at least a short trip back to Shanghai. I miss the sheng jian bao.

And end of year a trip to taiwan/japan, japan only if budget allows with CW.

Need to save up. OMG..

And i will have a lot of new boyfriends, since whichever guy i go overseas with is assumed to be my bf and out of all my travelling partners only sharon is a female..

Me time..

Been off for the past few days..

Other than doing my presentation research, i have been having a lot of me time..

Totally enjoy it..

I am someone who needs a lot of me time, just spending the whole day doing things i want to do on my own, but some people simply cant understand that.

Having me time is like a recuperating period for me before i return to work.

And no, my 2 days off is not sufficient. My 1st off which is my sleeping off is usually spent sleeping. And my 2nd off, if there is one is for me to laze around, wake up in the afternoon and watch my online drama..

Took 2 days leave and life is a bliss..

Spent 1 day in Orchard shopping. Was there for my 2nd eye review after my lasik at Paragon. After that i shopped around. Bought 2 tops from forever 21, 1 pair of sandals and a gift exchange present. Trying to curb my spendings, If not i would have bought a lot more things..

Second day, went to redeem a facial voucher i bought from Outlet.com. At upper thomson road, made a huge achievement, to me at least. Drove from my house to upper thomson road, after that drove to Outram for blood donation cos i received a sms from them during my facial. After that i drove to tampines Ikea. And that is without my car gps, although i did use my hp gps. There is a huge difference cos there is no one telling me to turn left now etc.

After a whole day of successful drive around, i convinced myself not to buy a new gps as the one Steven passed to me is kind of cranky, making me even more lost when i am already lost. Will turn to be independent and use my phone navigator instead.

As usual, bought a lot of things at Ikea. I should really curb my spendings..

Lasik

Finally made the appointment to go do it..

Think it will be quite scary..

And i will be broke after that..

Busy busy busy

Thought at after i graduate, it is the end of doing research and reading journals.

Been researching and reading a lot of journals on maritime studies to find information on my presentation..

Sucks..

Can't even have my off days fully to myself..

Being friends..

I have always hoped that we can remain as friends after all that happened..

I have to admit that i have not treated you as how i treat my other friends..

It is just that sometimes i do not know what to say to you and what you want..

There is always a hidden thought that are you asking me out to ask for another chance and we end up quarreling again..

I hope from no on we will be about to talk normally and not quarrel anymore..

Cough cough cough..

I have been coughing my lungs out lately..

To the extend that i can hardly sleep at night cos i will be up coughing..

Many times i will cough till i puke..

Grrr...

Please recover soon..

Its october again..

1 year ago i started on my first job after graduation..

1 year later i am still happy with my job and enjoying myself more and more each day.

It is not an easy job, there may be some down days but overall i am happy..

It provide me the financial backing and time to do what i want to do, which is travel around, it may be just neighbouring countries but i think it is suffice..

1 year ago i got my driving licence as well..

1 year later i am driving all over the place almost everyday..

I wonder what and where will i be 1 year later..

Sick again

Sick again..

Feel as though is the same illness as in March..

Will i lose another 6kg in 1 week again?

Though i know i will gain it back in no time again..

But it is plain uncomfortable, especially when i am supposed to go bangkok in a few more days..

Boooo

WTF

I dont think you have the right to slam my car door no matter how angry you are..

You are not forgiven..

Dumb me..

I never fail to amaze myself with the dumb things i do..

I slept with a blindfold in the afternoon before my night shift, woke up and open my eyes, i had a shock..

It was all darkness and i told it is night time already and is late for work.. Until i realise, it was because i am wearing the blindfold, of course it will be dark.. How dumb can i get??

At least i know my blindfold is effective in keeping the light out..

On a sidenote, my august leave is finally approved.. Means i wont be spending my birthday in singapore.. I cant wait..

July

Finally it the long awaited july..

Time really flies, i have been working for 8months..

Just got a pay increment, a pro-rated one, not super a lot but not bad already..

On top of that, by this month, my debts will be fully cleared, paid fully for my school fees and computer loan..

So happy..

Work have been good as well, being recognized that i am doing well feels good, at least it gives me some motivation to continue..

Things to look forward to for the upcoming months..

Aug- my birthday, hopefully my leave is granted so that i can go my bangkok..
Sept- My phone contract ends, hopefully iphone 5 is out so that i can get a new phone..

Happy happy happy..

Feeling happy about my work..

Not about the sucky schedule, nor the lack of sleep..

But got assurance from some people that i am doing a pretty good job..

I have always wonder if i am doing a good job not or i am the kind where people see the name in deployment will feel sian..

But hearing some people asking me to change shift so that they can work with me, or saying they came to work planning chiong with me tells me that i am not so chui after all..

Of course, i cant be compare with some of them but at least i got more confidence in myself now..

=)

Calbee

I got cravings for the hot & spicy calbee chips for the longest time but was always too lazy to go buy..

To the extend that i dreamt of me going to the supermarket and bought lots and lots of snacks..

Which is a pretty unusual thing since i do not usually snack..

This afternoon, i did exactly as what i dreamt.. I went supermarket and bought lots of snacks, all those that i dreamt about.. De ja vu?

Been having cravings for all the unhealthy food these days.. No wonder i feel myself gaining weight again..

FML..

Lesson learnt, satisfy your cravings as soon as they come before they get worst.

I don't know why..

But you never fail to pissed me off these days..

I got nothing more to say to you..

SUCKS..

Having the whole world calling you when all you want is a peaceful sleep after a not very peaceful night shift simply sucks..

Had to answer phone calls while half awake, don't even know if i spoke rubbish..

But after the night, i realised what wonderful colleagues i have, who helped me watch over my operations while i was out. Who ensured to order my supper knowing i am a hungry ghost. Who stayed back with me till i completed my incident report when they didnt have to.

I love bravo group..

=(

I want to book a 1 way ticket to nowhere and get out of here..

I am a happy girl..

Scored last night..

A very good personal best.. The efforts paid off..

=)

An advice

Learn to let go, it is only making me more unhappy..

Intensive exercise

Somehow, after each shift i always feel as though i just did an very intensive workout.

When i reach home and lie on my bed, my whole legs and back will be aching. It is not as though i run around during work, i spend 50% of my time sitting down..

Must be the stress..

Drastic weight loss..

Lost at least 4kg 1 less than a week..

Due to being sick and hardly ate anything..

Back to my ideal weight, hopefully it stays there..

But i will definitely be happier if the fats at my boobs stayed..

Now my bra feels loose..

Bra shopping?

The devil is around..

And it spells trouble..

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At a place where some people say that it is every man for himself, where i thought no one will care for about others, i felt some warm last night..

Was down with cough, flu and sore throat but still when to work and by the end of the shift i was left with no voice..

Started shift with a hot cup of ginger tea when a girl noticed that i am not feeling well..

Someone who was seated quite a distance away came over with some strepsils..

Another guy came over with strepsils as well..

An operator whom i do not even know his name gave me some packets of ginger tea once he hear i lost my voice..

All these small actions really made my night =)

BAD omen..

Although it only mean it can only get better and not worst from now on! (Or at least i hope so)

A new beginning..

Feb will mark the end of my OJT period, which i cant wait..

Other than having more money, being able to work without someone constantly at your neck feels good..

Am so glad that tomorrow is the last night i have to work with her, wont need to be taken out at when someone is in a bad mood, wont need to be blamed for something which is not entirely my fault.

A fresh start in march! A new challenge awaits..

Good news and bad news

March roster is out!

Good news is i only need to work a grand total of 14 days..

Bad news is out of the 14days, 9 days are night shifts.. More money but grow old faster.. Haha.. Not exactly bad news, cos i prefer night shifts..

I cant wait for my batam getaway!!

My favourite song

The national anthem..

Because hearing it from the radio at 6 in the morning means that i can go home, back to my bed soon!

Tough decision

Should i use the car or not?

If i do means expenses go up, but the convenience etc is tempting

Expenses go up means i will have less money for travelling, something i not willing to sacrifice..

How how??

I will die during if there ever is a war

How do i know?

Cos i actually managed to sleep through the civil defense siren..

Probably bomb already den i wake up..

Measles

My after facial face looks totally like i have measles.. I wanna die..

I actually survived!

Had the worst hangover ever, nothing compared to any of the sports ball.

The effect due combination a of Martell (such a uncle drink), beer and red wine.

Was super tempted to take MC today but refused to. A test of my limits. Totally thought that i will die anytime, the hangover effect lasted all the way till late afternoon.

Everytime after this kind of drinking session i always swear to quit drinking but i wonder if it will ever happen.. haha

The volcanoes are erupting..

The late nights and unhealthy food during cny is making my complexion like shit..

Boooo..

I wanna..

Shop!!

But i can't.. Been spending too much these day, on the pretext of rewarding myself for working so hard, so need to start controlling my spendings!!

I wanna save up and travel! I can't wait for april to come.. A slight increase in pay and bonus coming in!

Hopefully i can go for a weekend getaway in May! Or hopefully March! Need to find something to do with my leave.. Too many to clear! haha..

Time fliess..

It suddenly struck me that I am entering the 5th month of work and glad to say i am still enjoying my work so far.

The emcee on friday wasn't as bad as i though it will be. In fact, it went pretty well. When i was tasked the assignment i was totally OMG. Was thinking of all ways to turn it down or take mc or whatever, good thing they remained as just a thought.

It allowed me to overcome the fear of public speaking, especially with the mic and in front of all the big bosses. And having the bosses telling me i did a good job at the end of it, tells me that i made the right choice to accept the task. Though i was simply glad that i did not fall flat on my face on the stage.

But then, i have no idea why i seem to be the only newly joined person tasked with so many side assignments. First need to organise the event for engineering and operations with big bosses attending. Second was being the emcee. Third was being asked to be the "spotlight" person for the monthly newsletter the company have (includes interview and photo). I wonder whats next and there goes my hopes of wanting to be low profile and simply doing my job...

OMG..

I was informed yesterday that i will be the emcee for a safety event on friday..

My boss came to be and said that he heard i will be the face for the terminal..

FML..

They will probably see a damn red tomato up there, just the thought of it makes me wanna die..

WTF

I dont think there is a more ridiculous mother ever..

It is not as though we see each other very often, but once again you chose to meet your friends and not meet me..

Its okay, you will probably come running to me when your money runs out, thats the only time when i am the first person to come to your mind..

I probably sound like some unfilial child but dont judge before knowing what went on..

I just cut my hair again..

I think i am addicted to it..

But cutting hair is such an exciting thing, although getting laughed at with the end results is not..

Haha, shall try more weird hairstyles for now, till i get bored of it and grow back my long hair..

Btw, i look totally like a mushroom now.. Abit like my primary/sec 1 hair.. WTF..

I feel like an OWL..

I must have been one my previous life..

I tend to feel totally stoned during my day shifts and wide awake during my night shifts..

I can totally concuss during the day when i am at home but tend to not be able to sleep at night, especially when i am working day shift the next day..

There goes my beauty sleepppp..